hah.

http://firedoglake.com/2014/02/27/late-night-feed-em-to-the-lions/

I AM OUTCAST FROM THIS CHURCH

here's a good lenten project: remember daily what you broke. remember daily the humiliation and ostracism you put me through. remember daily that you are the worst thing to happen to me, ever.

you read that right. you are worse than being assaulted by my best friend's husband.

remember that you are poorly led sheep with no moral standing, no relevance, and no strength to stand up to anything uncomfortable.

you are headless, you are heartless in the church
i can tell by your behavior that you never met the savior
you are heartless, you are headless in the church.

lenten project

in the days when i used to believe there was a god, i used to have a lenten project.

for my lenten project this year i want to be standing on the corner, black cowl, to remind the williston federated church that i was cast out, humiliated.

never let them forget the harm done.

intertwined curses: never forget what you broke. never forget your abdication of moral standing. never forget that you broke a life. never rest easy as long as you walk this stone, sit under this roof; be uncomfortable, be off-balance. hear that sound? see that shadow?

know as surely as i stand here that there is no redemption, no resurrection, no forgiveness.

it is a blind alley, the church. it is an empty meal.

it is irrelevant, useless, and dangerous.

waiting

do not think, williston federated church, that i have lost interest. do not think, united church of christ, that you are off the hook. do not think, united methodist church, that we are done with this.

it is painful for me each day not to be taking action, not to be doing anything.

but sometimes the single best thing you can do is sit back and give the other side time and space to do a right thing.

i say "a" right thing because there never has been any one right thing, but a number of right things that could have been done at many places on the timeline, starting with the bad behavior of the pastor and the bad decisions of the church leadership.

there is time and opportunity, williston federated church, to repair some of what you broke.

there is opportunity, united church of christ, to try to be the thing you represent yourself as. there is time, united methodist church, to reclaim your abdicated moral authority.

the UMC task force for victim advocacy? too bad thats a fraud.

but it doesn't have to be.

it's time to step up. and you should be stepping up with the same alacrity you showed when you decided to humiliate and ostracize the victim for the sake of a pastor more in love with her own authority than with her dubious call.