lenten project

in the days when i used to believe there was a god, i used to have a lenten project.

for my lenten project this year i want to be standing on the corner, black cowl, to remind the williston federated church that i was cast out, humiliated.

never let them forget the harm done.

intertwined curses: never forget what you broke. never forget your abdication of moral standing. never forget that you broke a life. never rest easy as long as you walk this stone, sit under this roof; be uncomfortable, be off-balance. hear that sound? see that shadow?

know as surely as i stand here that there is no redemption, no resurrection, no forgiveness.

it is a blind alley, the church. it is an empty meal.

it is irrelevant, useless, and dangerous.